textbooks

I have just ordered my textbooks for one of my classes, and it is close to $400.  What am I thinking?  Why am I spending this money on textbooks?  Will I really be able to have a law career after all is said and done?  I have read that only the top of the class gets the good internships and the good jobs.  Will I have to become one of those competitive people just so I can get a shot a position that will have a good pay attached to it?  Maybe I should study international law and hope I can find a job in a nice country that isn't rioting every night or starting to circle the financial drain (or in it).  Here is to hoping that I will not have a complete panic attack next week at orientation.