Importance

Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
That is all I hear in my head.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Trying to convince myself it is not important.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Staying is school is what matters.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Grades are not the end all be all.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Waiting to see how I did.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Convincing myself this does not define me.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Waiting, worrying, wondering.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Slow your heartbeat, stop being scared.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
There is so much more out there.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Remember sandy beaches, salt air, warmth.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Laughter, love, star filled sky.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
At peace with whatever may come.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Peace, tranquility, serenity.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.

And the cycle begins again, as I await my grades form last semester.

waiting for grades

I am still waiting for grades.  I have started the Spring semester without all of my grades.  The two grades that were posted, had me where I thought I would be - but in all honesty I was hoping for slightly higher grades.  I found out my grades while I was on vacation in the U.S. Virgin Islands - I decided before I saw my grades that if I had failed out of law school I would be crashing on my friends couch while I looked for a job down there.  I am back here in North Carolina sitting in class talking about the Federal Rules of Evidence and unfair prejudice.  BUT, I am still waiting for one grade to come in.  I am hoping I stay in law school, because let's be honest who want to flunk out of law school?  Not I.  Yet, a the same time I am wishing I was back on a sunny warm beach, with a happy disposition.  While I wait for my last grade to get posted I am sitting in class, enjoying that I am here but missing being on the beach.  I am enjoying law school but not the stress it brings into my life.
I am no longer regretting starting law school - I have not found my balance, but I am hoping I am getting closer to it.  I think more trips to the beach are in my future - and a reunion with the USVIs immediately after I take the NC bar exam if not sooner.

Still here

Two of my classes for last semester posted the grades.  I am still in law school, which is good.  I checked my grades while on vacation in St. Thomas and realized I had to come back from paradise because I am still in law school.  That is a good thing, but it was sad to leave St. Thomas.  I missed the first night of classes due to this much needed vacation.  Now I am mentally preparing myself to get back into the swing of things both with working and then going to class.  I am hoping that this semester goes as well if not better than last semester so that I can stay in law school.  Maybe when I am done I will see about starting a practice in the U.S. Virgin Islands.  Still waiting for my third class posts grades - I figure if all else fails I am going to find a job in St. Thomas and spend my life in sunshine, salty air, and paradise.