Still in School

Grades finally came in and I have a high enough GPA that I will be allowed to stay in law school for two more years until I graduate.  I have decided to add getting a Master of Library Science to my J.D. degree while working full time, because I love the library.  I realize I am not writing this daily, like I was first under the delusion that I would be able to when I started law school two years ago.  I can't explain why, unless you are in law school, then you just understand.  My brain feels like it has been on constant overload for the past two years, and I have two more years to go.  A classmate was kind enough to point out that we are half way done, and at first I was excited then the dread came over me.  I am half way done, but the two years blew by and dragged on at the same time.  I know many of you think this may not be possible, but attend law school and you will realize that the time warp and loop holes scientists create theories about are real.  Two weeks of finals four months away seems like it would take forever and that you have plenty of time to do things like study.  However those four months will go by quicker than you think, except in a 50 minute class that feels like it takes four hours.  The two weeks of finals take forever except in the exams those three hours blitz by you in what feels like 15 minutes.
I know this is mostly rambles, and I could make a promise to try and do better at posting on a monthly or weekly basis, but for the imaginary people I think might be reading this I wont lie to you.  I can't even delude myself into thinking that after two years I would be able to better manage my time to find away to post an update more frequently.  Law school has been sucking time away from things I would like to do, and the things I would love to do are shortened down to what fits in between a study session and what little sleep I can afford myself.
I am still alive, I am still in law school, I am still a teacher, and I am half way done.  If I made it through the first two years I can make it through the next two - that might be my motto this summer as I take classes and as I start fall classes in just a few very short months.

3/25/2013

Simple thing that made me smile: getting tickets to another race (even if I am scared it will take too much time away form studying)

Simple thing that made me thankful: that I got 4 more flashcards done and some of my outline done before class today

Best line of the day:
She made my weekend - said about me by a professor when I sent her an answer to a question she asked in Thursday's class.

pearls of wisdom

Today I got some great words of wisdom from my adviser and I feel it would be appropriate to share with those contemplating going to law school or those in law school.

1. You will never have an easy semester in law school, you will not have a semester that allows you to just skate.

2. If you spend four years of your life in law school, it means you should be a law librarian.  Don't should yourself into taking the bar and spending a lot of time on something that you don't plan to do anything with.

3. We like your work, we want to see you around, and we want you around when we can pay you for being here.

Best line from a law professor

"We wouldn't be here if people didn't consent to sex.  It is natural"  My law professor explaining one of the reasoning used by the jury when dealing with sexual assault cases.

Valentine's Day 2013

Yes tonight I am spending the night with 70 or so classmates and 3 professors.  It is every evening law school student's dream on Valentine's Day.  While I am single and don't per se have plans, knowing I should not even bother because I am in class was a little depressing this year.  I have been dropping weight at a pretty good rate since getting back from St. Thomas and even today I have maintained a health calorie intake, even if the calories were mostly cupcakes and candy.  I am sitting in class and looking around and thinking "Yup, this is a Valentine's Day I will want to forget."  There has never been a super special nor a horribly bad Valentine's Day for me.  I love this holiday for the hearts, pink and purple, and cuteness that is generated.  Instead of that this year I have been kind of sad, since I knew I would be stuck in class for 3 hours.  I feel the silver lining is that next year's Valentine's Day should definitely be better. While this is not completely law school related, the need to say while not horrible having class tonight was a serious bummer. Midterms start in two weeks - the joys of pending grades will soon be upon us.  Bring the crazy on!  Bring on the Stress! I have no idea how I will deal with it, but I think my new motto will be I tried, therefore you cannot criticize me.

New motto for the next month:
I tried, therefore you cannot criticize me!

more advice from tonight's professors

Some of you may decide not to take the bar exam, to those of you that go that way more power to you.  For those of you that choose to submit yourself to that punishment good luck.
(yeah, that really makes me want to go up there and sign up for the bar exam)

Remember don't kill anyone.
(advice on how to avoid getting fired)

I have been sworn in at the Supreme Court, it really isn't that big of a deal, but it is a cool thing to do.
(If I pass the bar she is the person I am going to, to ask if I she can help me get sworn in by the Supreme Court)

If this is advice from lawyers who have gone through law school, taken the bar exam, passed the bar exam, and are practicing lawyers - my question is what I am worried about? Oh yeah, passing law school must happen first.

Importance

Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
That is all I hear in my head.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Trying to convince myself it is not important.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Staying is school is what matters.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Grades are not the end all be all.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Waiting to see how I did.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Convincing myself this does not define me.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Waiting, worrying, wondering.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Slow your heartbeat, stop being scared.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
There is so much more out there.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Remember sandy beaches, salt air, warmth.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Laughter, love, star filled sky.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
At peace with whatever may come.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
Peace, tranquility, serenity.
Breathe, Breathe, Breathe.

And the cycle begins again, as I await my grades form last semester.